Blogger’s Block… Am I Really Talking Politics Now?

I’m still new at this blogging thing…

and I’m already having writer’s block, or as some like to call it, blogger’s block.

What do you all want to hear about? What do you like to read about?

I could talk about books, health, fitness, beauty, mental health, food, school, anything!

…just not politics.

…alright maybe for a second.

I see MANY posts about this Kavanaugh situation. Moral of the story – if sexual assault or harassment is even on the table, his nomination and his job should be completely off the table.

I don’t understand the debate around it. NBC posted a tweet stating: “Even if it were all true, does this disqualify him from the Supreme Court?” YES IT ABSOLUTELY DOES! If he were to get the nomination and be placed into the supreme court, that just tells every other man in the world that they can get away with sexual assault, and still do big things with their lives.

Many people say, “Why so long for these women to come forward about their attacks?”

All I have to say to that is… #metoo.

I was sexually harrassed and assaulted by someone I thought I loved, for 3 years. I never said a word to anyone, until the day it went too far.

That same day, I was police shamed. I was told “it will be your word against his, you didn’t speak up for so long so it almost seems premeditated and false, and he doesn’t have a record so in the court’s eyes, he’s a good kid.”

The only thing they suggested and allowed me to do was get a restraining order, but if I had gone to trial, I “would’ve lost hard.”

THIS is why women don’t come forward. It’s ALWAYS the woman’s word against the man’s. Also, often times these women are threatened that if they tell anyone, they will be hurt, or worse. If you don’t have that threat in writing, the court won’t believe you.

This is a huge issue of justice in the US. How can you create laws that say sexual misconduct is illegal, but then brush it off a little because the accusee is a politician?

PLEASE. 

To all the women out there with a story they’re keeping inside, I support you. I understand why you have not come forward. I understand your fear.

To all the women out there with a story they have let out the bag, I commend you for your strength. I feel for you in my heart. I wish I had the strength and audacity that you do, but I know I can’t handle that fight that I may not even win.

#metoo

xo – liv

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What Day is it? HUMP DAY!

Happy Wednesday, everyone!

We’re at that mid-week point (for those who don’t work the weekends) and getting ready to finish up the week!

I feel like hump day hasn’t existed for me for awhile.

Since I go to school online, assignments are due on Thursdays and Sundays. There’s no physically going to class, there are assignments due on the weekends… so hump day for me is… no where. I also used to work every other weekend since I work in the nursing field – so hump day, for me, changed by the week.

Now that I’m not working (due to my current medical status), every day blends together, I forget the date half the time, and I’m really not on any sort of schedule. I need to change that!

My post about my morning routine is one I revisit often for motivation and encouragement. Certain days, I wake up and feel like I have no purpose since I can’t work, can’t go out and exercise, so I’m basically a sitting duck. I’ll wake up and say “let’s try again tomorrow.” I’d say I’m getting depressed.

Something I’ve learned over the years is if you’re not happy, the only one with the power to change it is you.

So… I’m blogging, keeping up with my schoolwork and housekeeping, and trying to find new hobbies that will make me feel like I have purpose.

So, help a sista out! What hobbies do you all enjoy at home?

I love to read (as many of my readers already know), but even sometimes I say to myself, “I just can’t read another page.” You know, cause the words start to blend together on the page and you feel like you’re going blind…

I enjoy coloring, but I’m not too artistic so I can’t draw. My stick figures are questionable, so anything further than that would be kindergarten-grade work.

I own crochet needles, some yarn, and other crochet tools. I’m not crafty. I suck. Can’t follow anything, not even a YouTube tutorial. I’m a lefty (yup) and everything I learn, I have to learn backwards. When I was in dental hygiene school a few years ago, there were 4 girls out of the 36 in our class that were lefties. Those 4 of us had to learn separately in another clinic with another instructor. That’s how special us lefties are. Let me tell ya.

What other hobbies are out there?!

Talk to me!

Happy Hump Day!!!!

-Liv

 

What’s Your Library Like?

I don’t know about anyone else out there, but I’m a complete bookworm.

Most of my friends like to go out to the bars or clubs on Friday and Saturday nights, some would like to binge watch Netflix with endless snacks, while I like to curl up in a room with cozy lighting, a cup of coffee or wine, depending on my mood, and a good book.

Am I weird because without the right lighting I just can’t get into reading?

I like all different genres of books – Romance, Nonfiction, Fiction, Sci-Fi, Fantasy (to certain limits…….), Self-Help, Adventure, Mystery, the list goes on.

Am I someone who has read every classic novel known to man like Moby Dick and anything Jane Austen? No… But I’ve read a few and I do value certain classics, for example, Catcher in the Rye.

I like current novels. Novels written in the last 5-10 years, maybe 20 years. One of my favorite authors is Elin Hilderbrand. She is a Massachusetts native author on the island of Nantucket. Majority of her stories are based on the island and her writing is so ecclectic and detailed, it pulls you right into the story. You feel like you’ve been to the island and experienced what it has to offer after reading one of her books.

I’ve read 11. I’d LOVE to meet her. She, to me, is a writing icon.

Another author I favorite is Danielle Steel. She has SO many books and short stories, a lot of them being New York Times Bestsellers. She, like Hilderbrand, draws you right into her storyline. Some of my favorite books by her are BlueFine Things, andCountry.

I’m also a total chick, and I love Nicholas Sparks. I’ve read many of his novels including, but not limited to Safe HavenTwo by Two, and The Guardian.

I thoroughly enjoy reading series as well. Debbie Macomber writes different series based upon different locations. The character list grows and thrives through the stories and I love getting caught up in them.

I am currently exploring a new series (sort of like Debbie Macomber’s) by JoAnn Ross. I’m enjoying what I’m reading so far, but I’m not completely immersed in the story like I am with many other books I’ve read. I don’t like to stop reading a book unless I’m absolutely dreading it, so I will finish and see how it goes!

 

Share your bookworm lovin’ thoughts with me!

Introducing… My Puppers/BFF!

Do dogs make you smile? I know they make me smile.

I have a dog, who is basically my entire world. His name is Bentley, aka Mr. B, Bent, B, Beezo, and sometimes shi*thead, depending on the occasion.

This is my pupperino:

**featuring my handsome boyfriend as well.

But back to the doge. In 2013 I went into a pet store that sold dogs because I wanted to investigate where they came from and how they were treated. NEVER thought I’d ever get a dog, myself. I was 19 years old, still lived with my mom, the thought wasn’t even there. Then I saw this little guy…

I asked if he could come out and they let him out.. He was so sick, and so scared, but he laid right in my lap. His name at the time was “Russell” and he was 16 weeks old.

Yup. I took him home. He was traced back to a puppy mill which made me FURIOUS. I spent a couple grand to get him up and running like a normal dog.

He is my BEST FRIEND on the planet. He has really bad anxiety (I can only imagine why with his birth and early upbringing) so he’s very attached and territorial of his owners. But once he gets to know anyone he’s a love.

He’s now 5 and a half years old. He has done so many things… Such as…

flown on a plane…

been on a boat…

swam in an ocean, lake, pond, and many swimming pools (although I don’t have pictures because I’m usually with him).

He loves to hike and go for walks in the woods or exploring new nature walks. Yes that’s me in the picture!

To me, he’s the greatest.

Tell me what you think and share your pups with me! Or any animals. I love them all. I grew up with cats and I used to have hamsters, lizards, and a snake!

Bloggers everywhere! I want in!

So, I’m pretty new to this blogging world. I started my blog last September (2017), posted a few posts, and gave up. As I mentioned in my recent post about perpetual boredom, I had surgery in August and have been out of commission ever since. I’ve been home a lot, drowning in my own loneliness. So I started my blog again, just to be able to write and connect with others. I’ve been pleased with the likes and comments I’ve received thus far. Keep them coming!

I enjoy reading other’s blogs too. I have questions for all you bloggers out there!

  • When did you start blogging?
  • Why do you blog?
  • Do you make money from your blog?
  • How did you decide on a central topic for your blog?
  • Do you ever blog with other bloggers or feature their posts on your blog?
  • How many of you have other forms of blogs such as YouTube Vlogs or a massive Facebook/Twitter/Instagram following?

I feel like I have so many different things I could write about, just like there are so many different things I enjoy reading about – life, love, beauty, fashion, books/literature, education, home life, and more! If there’s ONE thing you most likely will never find me writing about, it’s politics. Pigs will probably fly before I ever write about politics.

Talk to me! I want to hear feedback! I love the blog community and want to be a part of it!

 

Organize, shmorganize

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I’m really good at organizing, and I mean like, really good. I place all my schoolwork in a binder and organize them by course and date. I organize my pantry by category of food. I organize my refrigerator kind of like a game of Tetris because my fridge is small for my needs.

My problem? I can’t seem to stay organized.

I’ll go on a hardcore cleaning spree and my apartment will be spotless and smell like candles and cleaning products.

2 days later, my laundry is strewn across the floor or over the side of the hamper, rather than in it, my refrigerator looks like a bomb went off, my pantry will look like my dog went canoodling in there when in reality, it was me, and my house just won’t smell fresh anymore.

WHYYYYY?

How can I fix this?

Well, for one thing, I can stop being lazy. I’m pretty bad about putting things back where they belong.

Secondly, I recommend a trash barrel in every room. I often will leave a cup or a bottle on the table because I’m too laaaazy to throw it away in the kitchen. Keep a small receptacle for trash in each room and when it’s full, dump it.

Third, I mean, back to the lazy thing. Just put the damn laundry in the hamper.

Next, I love these bins that you can purchase on Amazon. They’re great for smaller refrigerators that need a little more help in the organization department. You can find the link here – Refrigerator Pull-Out Bin

I love all types of bins and boxes and baskets. I also love lamps! I love this lamp that has a power outlet built in for charging a device, and also has compartments to keep things organized such as pens, coins, or whatever you keep on your desk or nightstand! You an find the link to the lamp here – Desk Lamp with Power Outlet

Also, to keep my apartment smelling fresh, since we aren’t allowed to have burning candles, I have this awesome wax melter that I’ve had for years. You can buy any type of wax cubes you want, any brand. Since it’s the beginning of fall, I am loving these Farm Apple Pumpkin wax melts from Better Homes & Gardens. I’ve provided a link for Amazon, but they can also be purchased at Walmart!

Do you find yourself being lazy too? Share your home organization ideas with me!

Boredom is a MIND REELING Machine

So… I had surgery at the end of August. I’ll eventually post about the how and why, but I’m just currently so done with talking about it.

It’s supposed to be this life-changing process, but so far it isn’t going as planned and I’m not loving anything.

I was supposed to be out of work for 2 weeks… Then that turned into 3… Then 4.. And so on. I’m stuck.

At first I didn’t mind. I thought, “okay, well I’ll be able to do my schoolwork and I can watch movies and binge on some Netflix series.”

As time went on, days felt lonelier, money began to run tight, and I felt like my apartment walls were closing in on me.

A couple days ago I found myself sitting in complete silence and watching the movie of my life play out in my own mind. So fed up with TV and schoolwork and reading and puzzles and coloring and scrolling Pinterest… You name it, I’ve done it. This movie of life I was playing in my mind was more of the life I wished I were living, not the one I’m presently living.

Ever been that down and out to the point you fantasize about what life could be, but isn’t?

I wish I were prettier. I wish I could take some choices in life back. I wish I were born in different skin. I wish my family weren’t crazy and separate.

I was so bored all I could do was dwell on the things I cannot change.

So I’m writing. And I will continue to.

**of course my puppers always cheers me up

Get Outta Bed and Outta Your Head!

Sometimes, we wake up in the morning and think, “nah, let’s try again tomorrow.”

Nope. No more. Life’s too short for that.

Plus this is me, like, almost every day of the week recently.

 

So, I’m listing 7 things that can help sit yourself up, turn, put your feet on the ground, and kickstart your day.

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  1. Hit the bathroom first.

I’ve recently discovered that the most refreshing thing to do when I wake up is to go in the bathroom and have a few minutes of me time. Wash my face to awaken the senses, brush my teeth to feel fresh and clean, and whatever other morning duties you may have, but those are my two. I’m not one to wash my face in my sink because our town’s water is VERY chlorinated and it dries out my skin. I am ADDICTED to these face wipes. I’ll admit, I’ll even randomly use them to wash my face mid-day because I love the feeling and the smell. They get rid of ALL the oils and dirt from my face, they’re great at removing makeup, and they’re cheap! Who doesn’t love cheap?!

2. Drink water.

Your body has been resting for 8 hours (maybe more, maybe less depending on who you are). It is ready for some hydration and probably some fuel. I’m really bad, and I mean really bad at drinking water and staying hydrated. One of my favorite things to do is first thing in the morning fill up my Nalgene water bottle with ice cold water. The bottle has track marks on it that can show you how much you’ve consumed throughout the day. For me, it’s a nice little push that feels like an accomplishment at the end. AND it’s healthy so… let’s continue.

3. Breakfast.

Make a hearty breakfast. I don’t mean a big bowl of sugary cereal or a stack of pancakes. Cook some basic eggs for protein and some toast for carbohydrate energy and some fresh fruit. When I don’t eat breakfast, I get grumpy and ordinarily will be nauseous by the time lunch comes. If you’re in a rush, this Hamilton Beach Sandwich Maker for your quick-and-easy breakfast needs! I’ve had mine for 6 years (yes 6 years) and I STILL use it all the time when I need something quick on-the-go!

4. Make some coffee (or tea, or whatever you prefer… no cocktails).

I’m not a Keurig fan. I can’t just have one cup of coffee. Like, sorry, don’t bother me ’til I’ve had my 2, maybe 3 cups. Not healthy, I know, but when you’re an online student full-time and ALSO a full-time employee outside the home, well, caffeine becomes not only your best friend, but a part of you. I love my cheap little Mr. Coffee. I’ve had it for a year now and it’s still kickin’! If you prefer quality in a coffee maker and also some people prefer not to use a glass carafe, this Mr. Coffee Stainless Steel is a little more pricey, but a great buy!

5. Do something productive. 

I find myself saying, “I have nothing to do right now” a lot. FALSE! I HAVE PLENTY TO DO! I just don’t do it. Fill up those empty minutes of your morning folding that laundry you left hanging, or perhaps actually doing the laundry that’s been in the hamper for a week. Do your dishes, sweep the floor, clean your refrigerator (because really, who keeps their fridge perfect). If it sounds super un-fun, listen to some music or throw on an audiobook. I’m obsessed with Audible and if you sign up with that link, you get 2 audiobooks free!

6. Read something, anything! (Ok, not your social media feeds.)

I often find myself scrolling my Facebook and Twitter feeds like it’s the morning paper. Then I find myself really pissed off when I don’t know what’s going on in the world. I grew up watching the news and reading. Read a book, a newspaper, a magazine. Something to stimulate the mind! A great self-motivating book to jumpstart your day is You Are A Badass by Jen Sincero. She writes directly to her readers and uses raw, real-life stories integrated with humor. I read it twice. and I hate reading things twice.

7. Write!

Ok, I know some of you are thinking “really?” Really! When I was first told to start writing my feelings first thing in the morning, my response was “I have no feelings first thing in the morning.” Like I exclaimed earlier, FALSE! Everyone has feelings all the time. I free write. I love to doodle. So I’ll write about a dream so I don’t forget it, or I’ll write about what I feel like doing today, or I may write about why I feel like not doing anything today. My favorite notebook to keep my writing in is this one! It has thick paper, which is perfect for me because I love inky pens. It’s small so you can fit it in your purse and take it with you and it’s even got a pen loop so you’re always prepared. My favorite pens to write with are these finepoint pens. I love to doodle with them and make funky letters. I’m not quite at the bullet journaling level yet since my stick figures are even questionable, but maybe someday!

 

This is my morning ritual. It has helped me gain a sense of purpose other than school and work all the time. I feel like I have time for me and to discover who I am as a person. I have time away from the obligations and requirements of life and have that time to choose what I want to do.

Good Reads for All You Bookworms

Do you prefer curling up in a comfy chair or bed with a good book on a rainy day instead of binging on a Netflix series?

Well, I DO!

Here are some great books I’ve read in the past year that I thought I’d share!

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  1. Danielle Steel – Blue – Screen Shot 2018-09-20 at 1.31.21 PM.pngDanielle Steel knocks it out of the park with this one. I couldn’t put it down! It’s a heartwarming story of a woman who meets a homeless boy and takes him under her wing. Through triumph and tribulations, this story will bring you laughter, tears, and will make you feel like you know the characters.
  2. Ashley Prentice Norton – If You Left – Screen Shot 2018-09-20 at 1.40.40 PM.pngNorton is a fantastic writer. Through a true love story, raising a child, and mental health issues that bring a windstorm to the marriage, this story is one that keeps you wondering after every page you turn.
  3. Allison Leotta – A Good Killing – Screen Shot 2018-09-20 at 1.44.58 PM.pngI read this one in about 24 hours. A true page-turner, Leotta writes a mysterious story that keeps you on your toes. Who killed the beloved high school coach?
  4. Jude Deveraux – As You WishScreen Shot 2018-09-20 at 1.38.11 PM3 completely different women end up in the same summer home. Is there crazy girl drama or does a friendship form? …or both?
  5. M.O. Walsh – My Sunshine AwayScreen Shot 2018-09-20 at 2.13.00 PM A mysterious random attack on a young, popular athlete in a small, quiet town. I promise, you won’t regret this addictive read!

I have a LONG list, but I want to hear any feedback on these (whether you’ve read them already or if you read them after me!)

 

 

New Year, New Me? No.

It’s that time of the year. It only comes once. The one-month span where everyone’s like “New year, new ME!” all over your social media feeds.

 

Shut up. Get real. Y’all woke up the same on January 1st as you did on December 31st.

Except you might’ve had a little more of a hangover that day.

Then there’s the whole “new year resolutions” cliche too.

 

If you ask me, these ideas that come with the new year are actually just filled with PRESSURE. 2017 sucked (for myself), more or less, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to slave my mind over making 2018 the greatest year that ever happened. You can’t plan a year. You can barely plan tomorrow. Nothing is ever guaranteed. So instead of trying to make 2018 the best year of your life, try to make TODAY, this MINUTE, the best.

Here’s a long, long, yet still abridged story of my life the past 5 years. My proof as to why you can’t plan shit these days.

I grew up making plans for myself. Plans that I thought I could see being accomplished as clear as day. I wanted to be a dancer – go to college for dance, open my own studio, perform on big stages with professional companies… OKAY… So the first part happened. I went to college for dance back in 2012. The master plan I’d had since the age of 5 was officially on its way.

Remember how I just said “you can barely plan tomorrow?”

One month into my college career as a dance major, I fractured my ankle. Who needs ankles to dance?! Oh yeah, everyone. So that sucked.

A month later after I recovered and was back in the studio, my grandmother passed away 3 days before Thanksgiving. I found out over a phone call and was the only grandchild who didn’t get to say goodbye.

Let the depression strike – round 1.

I came home from school and told my mom I wasn’t sure if I wanted to return. I wasn’t sure if I even wanted to dance anymore. My heart just wasn’t in it. This was a shock for EVERYONE, including myself. I ate, slept, breathed dance. My mom tried to pick me up and tell me to take on second semester head strong and give it my best.

So I did the whole “new year, new me” thing.

I went back to school in January for second semester and was struck with mono within my first 2 weeks. After that, I stopped going to classes…

I was notified that I was failing – something I’d never heard before in my life. I grew up as an Honors student. Cried if I got even an A- on a test. I was THAT kid. But ok, so they tell me I’m failing and push me to see a school counselor who then advised me to take a medical leave of absence for clinical depression. So in March of 2013, I withdrew from my first year of college, and my dream school.

Wow, this new year new me thing was going REALLY well, don’t ya think?

Fast forward to May of 2013. I COULD NOT STAND NOT BEING IN SCHOOL. All my friends were in school, I felt dumb and like I was losing knowledge by the minute, but one thing I didn’t really miss… was dance. Maybe this was a new me?

I really wanted to go back to school. But I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do since for as LONG as I could remember, all I ever wanted to do was dance. I really didn’t know anything else. I started searching local schools to see what might interest me; found nothing, besides nursing, but I couldn’t afford to do that kind of schooling. (That’s a WHOLE other ball park of a story)

My psychiatrist mentioned studying Dental Hygiene to me. It was a quick degree – could get your Associates OR your Bachelors. She introduced me to Mount Ida College in Newton and I fell in love. The campus was beautiful, the hygiene clinic was stunning, the student body was small (which I prefer), and I even had eligibility to be an athlete.

I applied (very late) to Mount Ida with a warning that I probably would not get in due to the timing. Within 3 days of my application, I was accepted into the Pre-Dental Hygiene program and was so ecstatic to start this new journey of mine that fall. It really was a new me!

Fast forward to September 2013 – I began school at Mount Ida. I had tried out for and made the cheerleading team and was making new friends. I felt good! I also worked outside of school so I could pay for gas and food and a life. It worked out fine for me.

 

Then… I met a boy. BAD IDEA, GUYS. BAD IDEA.

I can joke about it now, years later. But it so wasn’t a joke then.

I completely fell head-over-heels for this boy. I say boy because he’s so far from a man I don’t think he will ever become one. This boy was a master manipulator. He had a way about him that was charismatic and charming that pulled you right in. Once you were in, you were trapped.

 

I was abused. Physically. Emotionally. Financially. And I let it happen. I didn’t know any better. I was scared to tell or I’d get hurt. I was always on the defense for him saying how great he was. All the abuse happened behind closed doors. I would’ve looked like a liar if I had said anything to anyone.

Fast forward to 2015. At this point, I had been accepted to the Dental Hygiene program, elected class president, treated over 14 patients in the clinic, and removed from the Dental Hygiene program. Throughout all of my schooling, I worked 4 jobs to keep myself afloat. This caused me to “fail” a course by 0.01 point… a 72.9% out of 73%, which was a passing grade. I was removed from the program. For the record, I was still with the boy at this time. I was “punished” for my “stupidity.”

I worked extremely hard. I never could have “planned” for this to happen. It just did. It was fate. So I had to decide what the hell to do next. So I changed to a Pre-Medical Biology major, as I had already taken many of the courses that are involved in the degree and I was pretty close. I was doing really well until March 2016. One fine snow day that March, the abuse from the boy went too far. He broke into my dorm room and basically took away my dignity and strength.

It took everything in me to bring myself back after that. I found myself an advocate, went to court, got my safety and dignity back and finished the school year strong. I was proud to have finished the school year at all. I had a full semester and then a part-time semester left to graduate and was finally on my way to getting the degree I worked for.

 

That summer, all of my college finances were taken away from me (long story, but safe to say, wasn’t planned) and I was not able to return to school for my last year.

 

I felt absolutely DEFEATED. I lost everything I worked for. Dance major? Gave that up. Dental hygiene major? Got kicked out of that for all my hard work. Pre-Med? Had no choice but to give that up.
So here I was in 2016 – 4 rocky ass years of college, no degree, and no one to help me finish to get it.

 

Fast forward to 2017. I couldn’t take not being in school and having no degree. It was impossible to find a job outside the realms of the food service industry or retail. SO NOT ME. I decided to take my education into my own hands.

 

You see all those cheesy commercials from SNHU of people receiving their degrees, like, in the middle of nowhere, because they received their degrees online. A degree is a degree. I looked into it, decided to spend my last $50 I had in my bank account to apply for any health related program I could, wrote an essay pretty much like this blog post, honest and to the point, and was accepted a week later with a financial aid package that covers my courses each term. Did I plan that at the beginning of 2017? No. Did I plan on going to school online ever? No.

MORAL OF THE STORY…

My life has been a ROLLER COASTER. I’m only 23. I have so much life left to live and I want to live it happily. I’ve been knocked down like bowling pins time and time again, but I won’t let it defeat me. New year, same me, just different goals. You can’t plan everything because you never know the unexpected or unknown. You can’t fear the unknown, though. You have to run into it head on with no fears. Take what life throws at you. It might suck some serious nuts, but you’ll get there!

 

NEW YEAR. NEW OUTLOOKS.