Long Time, No Post! (Ft. Review of The Identicals)

HELLO!

I am sincerely sorry for my absence. No one likes a blogger who’s inconsistent and doesn’t post… but when depression strikes, everything is left behind.

SO… what have I been up to? Well…

Last week I read The Identicals by Elin Hilderbrand… in approximately… 8 hours total?

AWESOME read. Honestly, probably one of her best ones. I am an avid Elin Hilderbrand fan – the only books of hers I haven’t read are her winter short stories and Silver Girl, which I just picked up at my library today! Oh and Winter in Paradise, but it’s new enough that it’s acceptable that I haven’t read it yet… and the library didn’t have it so… boooooo 😦

Here is my Goodreads review!

The IdenticalsThe Identicals by Elin Hilderbrand

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Physically identical, but polar opposite personalities.

Hilderbrand depicts a story of identical twins Tabitha and Harper Frost who were separated from each other when their parents decided to divorce as they went to college. Before they left, the two played a game of rock-paper-scissors to decide who was going with their father Billy and who was staying with their high-strung, money hungry, designer mother Eleanor Roxie-Frost.

That game of rock-paper-scissors changed their lives forever.

Separated by 11 miles of ocean, Harper resides on Martha’s Vineyard with her father while Tabitha resides on Nantucket with her mother and her 16 year old daughter Ansley. When tragedy strikes the family, it’s time to reconnect and work together as a family to get through their hardship.

After 14 years apart (with a small meet-up in the middle when Tabitha had struggles with a premature baby), Tabitha and Harper are forced to reckon with their past and have each other’s backs. Will they reconcile or will it all blow up in shambles?

Hilderbrand writes, yet again, another novel that pulls your heartstrings and keeps you turning the pages. As a long-time fan of Hilderbrand, I have to say this was one of my favorites. One of my favorite things about Hilderbrand is that she knows Nantucket and the state of Massachusetts so well that when she writes a setting in her story, it is so ecclecticly vibrant in description that you feel like you’re right there in the story.

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I recently decided to obtain a library card because I am currently unemployed due to medical reasons and I can no longer afford my book obsession. Today, I had myself a little library mini-haul.

What did I pick up?

Small Great Things by Jodi Picoult

Silver Girl by Elin Hilderbrand

Maybe in Another Life by Taylor Jenkins Reid

Finding Emotional Balance: A Guide for Women by Merry Noel Miller

 

Some may think – that last one seems a little out of place considering the genre of the other three. I decided to pick it up becuase I am currently experiencing one of the worst bouts of depression in all my years of life. Sometimes, not even a book can take me away from the reality of it all like it usually does for me. I had to do something… So I’ve decided to start with that one. So far, so good. I’ve only read 42 pages and I’m completely enlightened about the woman’s body and mind. I don’t feel out of place or alone; so many others are going through exactly what I am.

I was reading All Fall Down by Jennifer Weiner… I did not finish (although I probably will at some point because one of my pet peeves is leaving a book unfinished regardless of whether or not I enjoyed it). I ordinarily adore and admire Weiner’s writing, but this one seemed redundant more than anything.

Thoughts? I’d love to hear from you, especially during this tough time.

Happy Friday! TGIF

xo – liv

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Reviews of Heron’s Landing and Girl, Wash Your Face

I’m back after a few day hiatus. I had surgery (again) on Tuesday so I am still recovering. Today, I am much more awake and ready to post!

During the past few days, I completed reading Heron’s Landing by JoAnn Ross, and in 3 days I knocked Girl, Wash Your Face by Rachel Hollis right off my October TBR. Awesome, quick little read!

I have posted my reviews on Goodreads, but I will share my thoughts here.

Herons Landing (Honeymoon Harbor, #1)Herons Landing by JoAnn Ross

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

The synopsis of this story made this book sound like a quick and easy, truly intriguing read.
It was and it wasn’t. In the first few chapters alone, you are introduced to so many different characters it’s hard to keep track of who’s who. As the book went on, I caught on and actually grew to love the story. I have a love for some of the characters that I hope to see again in a continuing novel.

Brianna Mannion – Our main girl in the story. She has returned back to her quaint, quiet little hometown after years of working in Las Vegas, the city that never sleeps. Her reasoning for returning home is to purchase the local Heron’s Landing and turn it into a Bed and Breakfast. Brianna, a young, single woman with a strong head and stubbornness as hard as concrete, can’t fulfill her dreams all alone. Heron’s Landing is in shambles and needs lots of TLC.

Seth Harper – The ever famous town contractor, Seth, of the well known Harper family, is one of Brianna Mannion’s best friends from adolescence, and also the widower of her best friend Zoe. Brianna comes upon Seth in Honeymoon Harbor (whom she has crushed on since the dawn of time) and they decide to revamp Heron’s Landing together. Does that lifelong crush of Brianna’s become a mutual feeling? Or do past memories keep them apart?

Kylee and Mai – LOVE THESE TWO. Not your average lesbian couple. So much love between these two as they prepare for their wedding, new home, and incoming baby. I don’t want to give much away about them, but I loved whenever I’d turn a page and they were in the scene. Follow these amazing women seeking a life of love and success.

You also have Seth’s parents, Brianna’s parents and brother Quinn, who owns the local burger and beer joint.You also have Doris and Dottie who own the local shop, The Dancing Deer. There are a slew of characters, but these are the ones who were the most important to me and I hope to read about again.

 

Girl, Wash Your Face: Stop Believing the Lies About Who You Are so You Can Become Who You Were Meant to BeGirl, Wash Your Face: Stop Believing the Lies About Who You Are so You Can Become Who You Were Meant to Be by Rachel Hollis

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

FABULOUS!
Hollis is straightforward, very blunt, and honest. I loved her personal stories and how open she is with her readers. I grew up Roman Catholic with a strong belief in God. Today, that is no longer true in my life, but I support her Christian beliefs and I agree with them to a certain degree.
I thought she did a great job addressing the most crucial issues in women and she truly hit the nail on the head with the lies we believe. I commend her for all she has achieved and chosen to share with her readers.
She made me laugh, cry, and everything inbetween. Bravo!!! Loved this one!!!

Now, I am currently reading A Spark of Light by Jodi Picoult. I know many of you are reading it or have just finished it! Thoughts?!

 

Happy Thursday!

xo – liv

 

Three Bookish Things Tag!

I haven’t posted in a couple days – I had a funeral to attend, then I had food poisoning, and I’m having complications from surgery so I have to go back into the operating room on Tuesday. (Bleh, please send healing vibes)

I wanted to post today, but really have no energy for thinking up an entire post and typing it out… SO…

I saw this post on Kris’ Boston Book Blogger site and it looked super fun and I figured I can do that today!

SO here it goes…

THREE READ ONCE AND LOVED AUTHORS
  • Dorothy Garlock
  • Kristin Hannah
  • Jennifer Weiner
THREE TITLES I’VE WATCHED BUT HAVEN’T READ
THREE CHARACTERS YOU LOVE
  • Olivia Marsten (Take Me Home)
  • Oskar Schell (Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close)
  • Blue (Blue)

 

THREE SERIES’ BINGED
THREE UNPOPULAR BOOKISH OPINIONS
  • I’m not a fan of book series, like I just mentioned
  • I actually hate when books become movies, especially if I have already read it.
  • I am not a Kindle fan. At all. I’ve had a NOOK for 8 years. Not sorry!

THREE CURRENT FAVOURITE BOOK COVERS
  • Plan out my blog posts rather than trying to attempt at random
  • Don’t bite off more than I can chew
  • Meet some fellow bloggers/gain more followers!

 

I am not tagging anyone because I have a feeling most of the people I would tag have already done this book tag! Feel free to take it, just mention me so I can see! 🙂

Happy Friday! TGIF!

xo – liv

The Ultimate Book Tag!

I love the idea of tags and I came across the Ultimate Book Tag on In Love & Words by Bree and I wanted to jump on! So, I won’t babble on, let’s get going.

Questions

Do You Get Sick While Reading In The Car?
I’m nauseous just thinking about it. Y.E.S. I can’t even play DJ in the car if I’m the passenger because I can’t scroll for songs.

Which Author’s Writing Style Is Completely Unique To You And Why
I’d have to say Dorothy Garlock. When I read Take Me Home, at first I thought I wasn’t going to be a fan because I’m not always a lover of older-set books, i.e. early 1900s. I like present day novels. Her writing had me hooked and made me dive right into the story as if I were the main character, living the whole thing. I actually hope to read it again. It’s a novel that made me feel the butterflies and jitters a girl feels when falling in love. I don’t think a book has ever made me physically feel anything like that.

Harry Potter or Twilight? Give 3 Reasons Why.
…two totally different things. But Harry Potter.

Do You Carry A Book Bag? If So, What’s In It (Besides Books)?
I do! I carry my laptop around, my tablet, always a book or two that I’m reading, chargers, my wallet, maybe a folder of schoolwork depending on the day, etc.

Do You Smell Your Books?
Ok, when I first read this question I thought “so I’m not the only one!” So there’s your answer.

Books With or Without Illustrations?
With is cool, but I don’t really care.

What Book Did You Love While Reading, But Discovered Later It Wasn’t Quality Writing?
Sarah Pinborough’s Behind Her Eyes. I thought the story line was great, but getting through it was tough at times because it was repetitive.

Do You Have Any Funny Stories Involving Books From Your Childhood?
Umm… I had way too many books by the time I was like 12/13 and my mom did a large book unhaul when I wasn’t home and I was devastated, for weeks, like, my young pre-teen life was over.

What Is The Thinnest Book On Your Shelf?
Number the Stars by Lois Lowry. Classic 🙂

What Is the Thickest Book On Your Shelf?
Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland and Other Classic Works.

Do You Write As Well As Read? Do You See Yourself Being An Author In the Future? 

I do write, but I keep it very private as of right now. I could see myself being an author, but I don’t think I’m confident enough in myself yet to take that leap.

When Did You Get Into Reading?
I started reading when I was 2. The first book I read was the Adventures of Curious George. I was reading 400+ page chapter books by the age of 7.

What Is Your Favorite Classic Book?
Catcher in the Rye

What Was Your Best Subject In School?
Call me crazy…. Mathematics, specifically Statistics and Calculus.

If You Were Given A Book As A Present That You Read Before And Hated, What Would You Do?
I’m always polite when accepting gifts. I’d thank them very much and say I appreciate it.

What Is A Lesser Known Series That You Know Of That Is Similar to Harry Potter or the Hunger Games?
That’s a toughie…

What Is A Bad Habit You Always Do (Besides Rambling) While Filming?
I’m not a vlogger (yet) so I can’t answer that one!

What Is Your Favorite Word?
Flabbergasted.

Are You A Nerd, Dork, or Dweeb?
Nerd.

Vampires or Fairies? Why?
Fairies. Not a vampire person.

Shapeshifters or Angels? Why?
I think shapeshifters are kind of interesting, but I’m into angels too, so both?

Spirits or Werewolves? Why?
Spirits – not a werewolf person.

Zombies or Vampires? Why?
Neither, but if I had to choose one, zombies.

Love Triangles or Forbidden Love?
I love a juicy love triangle, but it has to be written right.

Full on Romance Books Or Action-Packed With A Few Love Scenes?
Oh give me that butterfly-inducing romance all the way!

Tag… You’re It!

Take a whack at it! Let me know if you gave it a shot; I’d love to see!

Time Management… Any Planner Tips?

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BOY am I HORRIBLE at time management.

Mostly attirbuting to my laziness or carelessness, but also greatly due to lack of motivation.

I’ve been obsessed with planners/agendas my entire life. My go-to planner for years has been the Day Designer for Blue Sky. I find it affordable for a planner (they can be upwards of, like, $70! I love planners, but I kinda love my bank account a little more). Not only affordable, but definitely has a lot to offer! There are sections for yearly goals, achievements, monthly plans and reviews, contacts, birthdays, and more. There are monthly calendar layouts and also weekly layouts. I’ve been using this planner since the beginning of college (circa, 2012) and love it!

If I weren’t a broke college student, I would definitely purchase the Erin Condren LifePlanner. They can be purchased on Amazon or you can personalize one online on her website ErinCondren.com.

Now… some people might be thinking, “what about bullet journals?”

LOVE the idea of bullet journals, but my artistic skill level is subpar to that of a preschooler’s. I’m constantly scrolling Pinterest and looking at/re-pinning bullet journal pins and I’ll sit there and drool over them. Then I will make up this idea in my head that I will start one! The minute I begin to come up with an idea and put the pen to the paper, it’s game over. I can’t draw. I’m not creative. I may be creative and eloquent with words, but not artistically with drawing, painting, crocheting, none of that.

Physically, I was an artist my entire life. I was a dancer – I attended college for dance. So yes, I’m creative, but not when it comes to creating images on paper.

How many of you out there make and follow bullet journals? I’d love to see your ideas and hear your inspiration!

When it comes to my planner, I’m always really excited to fill it out, but I’m really bad at actually following what I wrote down. Any tips?

I sometimes become lazy and recently, since my surgery, I’ve become very isolated and lonely and my depression has kicked in. My motivation and time-management are totally depleted. Any advice?

I’d love to hear from some of you and see your ideas!

Happy Sunday!

xo – liv

What Day is it? HUMP DAY!

Happy Wednesday, everyone!

We’re at that mid-week point (for those who don’t work the weekends) and getting ready to finish up the week!

I feel like hump day hasn’t existed for me for awhile.

Since I go to school online, assignments are due on Thursdays and Sundays. There’s no physically going to class, there are assignments due on the weekends… so hump day for me is… no where. I also used to work every other weekend since I work in the nursing field – so hump day, for me, changed by the week.

Now that I’m not working (due to my current medical status), every day blends together, I forget the date half the time, and I’m really not on any sort of schedule. I need to change that!

My post about my morning routine is one I revisit often for motivation and encouragement. Certain days, I wake up and feel like I have no purpose since I can’t work, can’t go out and exercise, so I’m basically a sitting duck. I’ll wake up and say “let’s try again tomorrow.” I’d say I’m getting depressed.

Something I’ve learned over the years is if you’re not happy, the only one with the power to change it is you.

So… I’m blogging, keeping up with my schoolwork and housekeeping, and trying to find new hobbies that will make me feel like I have purpose.

So, help a sista out! What hobbies do you all enjoy at home?

I love to read (as many of my readers already know), but even sometimes I say to myself, “I just can’t read another page.” You know, cause the words start to blend together on the page and you feel like you’re going blind…

I enjoy coloring, but I’m not too artistic so I can’t draw. My stick figures are questionable, so anything further than that would be kindergarten-grade work.

I own crochet needles, some yarn, and other crochet tools. I’m not crafty. I suck. Can’t follow anything, not even a YouTube tutorial. I’m a lefty (yup) and everything I learn, I have to learn backwards. When I was in dental hygiene school a few years ago, there were 4 girls out of the 36 in our class that were lefties. Those 4 of us had to learn separately in another clinic with another instructor. That’s how special us lefties are. Let me tell ya.

What other hobbies are out there?!

Talk to me!

Happy Hump Day!!!!

-Liv

 

What’s Your Library Like?

I don’t know about anyone else out there, but I’m a complete bookworm.

Most of my friends like to go out to the bars or clubs on Friday and Saturday nights, some would like to binge watch Netflix with endless snacks, while I like to curl up in a room with cozy lighting, a cup of coffee or wine, depending on my mood, and a good book.

Am I weird because without the right lighting I just can’t get into reading?

I like all different genres of books – Romance, Nonfiction, Fiction, Sci-Fi, Fantasy (to certain limits…….), Self-Help, Adventure, Mystery, the list goes on.

Am I someone who has read every classic novel known to man like Moby Dick and anything Jane Austen? No… But I’ve read a few and I do value certain classics, for example, Catcher in the Rye.

I like current novels. Novels written in the last 5-10 years, maybe 20 years. One of my favorite authors is Elin Hilderbrand. She is a Massachusetts native author on the island of Nantucket. Majority of her stories are based on the island and her writing is so ecclectic and detailed, it pulls you right into the story. You feel like you’ve been to the island and experienced what it has to offer after reading one of her books.

I’ve read 11. I’d LOVE to meet her. She, to me, is a writing icon.

Another author I favorite is Danielle Steel. She has SO many books and short stories, a lot of them being New York Times Bestsellers. She, like Hilderbrand, draws you right into her storyline. Some of my favorite books by her are BlueFine Things, andCountry.

I’m also a total chick, and I love Nicholas Sparks. I’ve read many of his novels including, but not limited to Safe HavenTwo by Two, and The Guardian.

I thoroughly enjoy reading series as well. Debbie Macomber writes different series based upon different locations. The character list grows and thrives through the stories and I love getting caught up in them.

I am currently exploring a new series (sort of like Debbie Macomber’s) by JoAnn Ross. I’m enjoying what I’m reading so far, but I’m not completely immersed in the story like I am with many other books I’ve read. I don’t like to stop reading a book unless I’m absolutely dreading it, so I will finish and see how it goes!

 

Share your bookworm lovin’ thoughts with me!

Boredom is a MIND REELING Machine

So… I had surgery at the end of August. I’ll eventually post about the how and why, but I’m just currently so done with talking about it.

It’s supposed to be this life-changing process, but so far it isn’t going as planned and I’m not loving anything.

I was supposed to be out of work for 2 weeks… Then that turned into 3… Then 4.. And so on. I’m stuck.

At first I didn’t mind. I thought, “okay, well I’ll be able to do my schoolwork and I can watch movies and binge on some Netflix series.”

As time went on, days felt lonelier, money began to run tight, and I felt like my apartment walls were closing in on me.

A couple days ago I found myself sitting in complete silence and watching the movie of my life play out in my own mind. So fed up with TV and schoolwork and reading and puzzles and coloring and scrolling Pinterest… You name it, I’ve done it. This movie of life I was playing in my mind was more of the life I wished I were living, not the one I’m presently living.

Ever been that down and out to the point you fantasize about what life could be, but isn’t?

I wish I were prettier. I wish I could take some choices in life back. I wish I were born in different skin. I wish my family weren’t crazy and separate.

I was so bored all I could do was dwell on the things I cannot change.

So I’m writing. And I will continue to.

**of course my puppers always cheers me up

Good Reads for All You Bookworms

Do you prefer curling up in a comfy chair or bed with a good book on a rainy day instead of binging on a Netflix series?

Well, I DO!

Here are some great books I’ve read in the past year that I thought I’d share!

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  1. Danielle Steel – Blue – Screen Shot 2018-09-20 at 1.31.21 PM.pngDanielle Steel knocks it out of the park with this one. I couldn’t put it down! It’s a heartwarming story of a woman who meets a homeless boy and takes him under her wing. Through triumph and tribulations, this story will bring you laughter, tears, and will make you feel like you know the characters.
  2. Ashley Prentice Norton – If You Left – Screen Shot 2018-09-20 at 1.40.40 PM.pngNorton is a fantastic writer. Through a true love story, raising a child, and mental health issues that bring a windstorm to the marriage, this story is one that keeps you wondering after every page you turn.
  3. Allison Leotta – A Good Killing – Screen Shot 2018-09-20 at 1.44.58 PM.pngI read this one in about 24 hours. A true page-turner, Leotta writes a mysterious story that keeps you on your toes. Who killed the beloved high school coach?
  4. Jude Deveraux – As You WishScreen Shot 2018-09-20 at 1.38.11 PM3 completely different women end up in the same summer home. Is there crazy girl drama or does a friendship form? …or both?
  5. M.O. Walsh – My Sunshine AwayScreen Shot 2018-09-20 at 2.13.00 PM A mysterious random attack on a young, popular athlete in a small, quiet town. I promise, you won’t regret this addictive read!

I have a LONG list, but I want to hear any feedback on these (whether you’ve read them already or if you read them after me!)

 

 

New Year, New Me? No.

It’s that time of the year. It only comes once. The one-month span where everyone’s like “New year, new ME!” all over your social media feeds.

 

Shut up. Get real. Y’all woke up the same on January 1st as you did on December 31st.

Except you might’ve had a little more of a hangover that day.

Then there’s the whole “new year resolutions” cliche too.

 

If you ask me, these ideas that come with the new year are actually just filled with PRESSURE. 2017 sucked (for myself), more or less, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to slave my mind over making 2018 the greatest year that ever happened. You can’t plan a year. You can barely plan tomorrow. Nothing is ever guaranteed. So instead of trying to make 2018 the best year of your life, try to make TODAY, this MINUTE, the best.

Here’s a long, long, yet still abridged story of my life the past 5 years. My proof as to why you can’t plan shit these days.

I grew up making plans for myself. Plans that I thought I could see being accomplished as clear as day. I wanted to be a dancer – go to college for dance, open my own studio, perform on big stages with professional companies… OKAY… So the first part happened. I went to college for dance back in 2012. The master plan I’d had since the age of 5 was officially on its way.

Remember how I just said “you can barely plan tomorrow?”

One month into my college career as a dance major, I fractured my ankle. Who needs ankles to dance?! Oh yeah, everyone. So that sucked.

A month later after I recovered and was back in the studio, my grandmother passed away 3 days before Thanksgiving. I found out over a phone call and was the only grandchild who didn’t get to say goodbye.

Let the depression strike – round 1.

I came home from school and told my mom I wasn’t sure if I wanted to return. I wasn’t sure if I even wanted to dance anymore. My heart just wasn’t in it. This was a shock for EVERYONE, including myself. I ate, slept, breathed dance. My mom tried to pick me up and tell me to take on second semester head strong and give it my best.

So I did the whole “new year, new me” thing.

I went back to school in January for second semester and was struck with mono within my first 2 weeks. After that, I stopped going to classes…

I was notified that I was failing – something I’d never heard before in my life. I grew up as an Honors student. Cried if I got even an A- on a test. I was THAT kid. But ok, so they tell me I’m failing and push me to see a school counselor who then advised me to take a medical leave of absence for clinical depression. So in March of 2013, I withdrew from my first year of college, and my dream school.

Wow, this new year new me thing was going REALLY well, don’t ya think?

Fast forward to May of 2013. I COULD NOT STAND NOT BEING IN SCHOOL. All my friends were in school, I felt dumb and like I was losing knowledge by the minute, but one thing I didn’t really miss… was dance. Maybe this was a new me?

I really wanted to go back to school. But I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do since for as LONG as I could remember, all I ever wanted to do was dance. I really didn’t know anything else. I started searching local schools to see what might interest me; found nothing, besides nursing, but I couldn’t afford to do that kind of schooling. (That’s a WHOLE other ball park of a story)

My psychiatrist mentioned studying Dental Hygiene to me. It was a quick degree – could get your Associates OR your Bachelors. She introduced me to Mount Ida College in Newton and I fell in love. The campus was beautiful, the hygiene clinic was stunning, the student body was small (which I prefer), and I even had eligibility to be an athlete.

I applied (very late) to Mount Ida with a warning that I probably would not get in due to the timing. Within 3 days of my application, I was accepted into the Pre-Dental Hygiene program and was so ecstatic to start this new journey of mine that fall. It really was a new me!

Fast forward to September 2013 – I began school at Mount Ida. I had tried out for and made the cheerleading team and was making new friends. I felt good! I also worked outside of school so I could pay for gas and food and a life. It worked out fine for me.

 

Then… I met a boy. BAD IDEA, GUYS. BAD IDEA.

I can joke about it now, years later. But it so wasn’t a joke then.

I completely fell head-over-heels for this boy. I say boy because he’s so far from a man I don’t think he will ever become one. This boy was a master manipulator. He had a way about him that was charismatic and charming that pulled you right in. Once you were in, you were trapped.

 

I was abused. Physically. Emotionally. Financially. And I let it happen. I didn’t know any better. I was scared to tell or I’d get hurt. I was always on the defense for him saying how great he was. All the abuse happened behind closed doors. I would’ve looked like a liar if I had said anything to anyone.

Fast forward to 2015. At this point, I had been accepted to the Dental Hygiene program, elected class president, treated over 14 patients in the clinic, and removed from the Dental Hygiene program. Throughout all of my schooling, I worked 4 jobs to keep myself afloat. This caused me to “fail” a course by 0.01 point… a 72.9% out of 73%, which was a passing grade. I was removed from the program. For the record, I was still with the boy at this time. I was “punished” for my “stupidity.”

I worked extremely hard. I never could have “planned” for this to happen. It just did. It was fate. So I had to decide what the hell to do next. So I changed to a Pre-Medical Biology major, as I had already taken many of the courses that are involved in the degree and I was pretty close. I was doing really well until March 2016. One fine snow day that March, the abuse from the boy went too far. He broke into my dorm room and basically took away my dignity and strength.

It took everything in me to bring myself back after that. I found myself an advocate, went to court, got my safety and dignity back and finished the school year strong. I was proud to have finished the school year at all. I had a full semester and then a part-time semester left to graduate and was finally on my way to getting the degree I worked for.

 

That summer, all of my college finances were taken away from me (long story, but safe to say, wasn’t planned) and I was not able to return to school for my last year.

 

I felt absolutely DEFEATED. I lost everything I worked for. Dance major? Gave that up. Dental hygiene major? Got kicked out of that for all my hard work. Pre-Med? Had no choice but to give that up.
So here I was in 2016 – 4 rocky ass years of college, no degree, and no one to help me finish to get it.

 

Fast forward to 2017. I couldn’t take not being in school and having no degree. It was impossible to find a job outside the realms of the food service industry or retail. SO NOT ME. I decided to take my education into my own hands.

 

You see all those cheesy commercials from SNHU of people receiving their degrees, like, in the middle of nowhere, because they received their degrees online. A degree is a degree. I looked into it, decided to spend my last $50 I had in my bank account to apply for any health related program I could, wrote an essay pretty much like this blog post, honest and to the point, and was accepted a week later with a financial aid package that covers my courses each term. Did I plan that at the beginning of 2017? No. Did I plan on going to school online ever? No.

MORAL OF THE STORY…

My life has been a ROLLER COASTER. I’m only 23. I have so much life left to live and I want to live it happily. I’ve been knocked down like bowling pins time and time again, but I won’t let it defeat me. New year, same me, just different goals. You can’t plan everything because you never know the unexpected or unknown. You can’t fear the unknown, though. You have to run into it head on with no fears. Take what life throws at you. It might suck some serious nuts, but you’ll get there!

 

NEW YEAR. NEW OUTLOOKS.